First official post! :D
Monday, April 26, 2010
; 9:28 PM
(I never forget)
YEAH, Cant belive it right
JL IS FINALLY BLOGGING. :D
Yup its official people,
i am blogging, for the very first time i might add.
Well, basic intro.
I've decided to blog because of a few reasons
1. Im getting bored with gaming. (YES, this is coming from the guy who engages in "Gaming talk" with linus.)
2. I need to express myself more.
3. Somthing happened between me and a really good friend, And instead of bottling up as i usually do, i've decided to blog about it.
Ok, for the past few days i feel really shitty,
Why u might ask,
Cause First up, ive got the flu, and i cough out phlegm every like 5 mins. CANT FRIGGIN CYCLE OR TALK MUCH, My 2 pleasures in life. :(
Secondly, Ive started worrying for a curly hair brother of mine :), I keep encouraging him that what he is facing is really nothing, but i keep getting doubts from him, and i suddenly feel afraid for him.
Lastly, you. Everytime i see you in school, i get reminded of what happened that night, and it really is all my fault.(How could i ever even suggest to cut off all ties with the person that have been there for me, WHAT THE FUCK WAS I THINKING, i beat my self everytime i see you, cause i get reminded of my stupidity, and how much ive hurt you. i left you when u were besieged from all sides. i not sure if you can ever forgive me, i cant even forgive myself)
And ive learnt somthing really impt from this, Time dosent heal all, it just gives you the chance to heal, and move on with life.
And for the past few days, i would like to thank a whole list of ppl,
Brother - thanks for helping me through this, giving me support and for never doubting in me, a big thank you, brother. :D
Jia en (kwaypengkia) - For all those who dont know what (kwaypengkia) means, it roughly translates to in hoikken (Chicken rice boy). :D. Thank for joking with me in class, and althought somtimes i may flare up at you for ur incessant jokes about my boobs or teasing me, i just want you to know, you helped alot this past week, and the msg u sent me really touched me, THANKS SOOOOO MUCH KWAY PENG KIA. :D
Edward (rabbit) - Sorry edward X_X. Dont kill me when u see me in sch tmr. :D. Surprised to see your name up here anot? :D. You also been advising me and helping me through this peirod of my life, even thought u got probs in ur life as well. AND IM SO SORRY I PASSED MY MOOD OVER TO YOU. CHEER UP OK RABBIT. :D
Brendon & Gabriel - I PUT U TWO TOGETHER CAUSE U BOTH ARE REALLY LIKE TWINS OKIEE. :D ok, these two have been supporting me, joking with me to cheer me up, even inviting me on some of their outings to cheer me up further. I really treasure what you guys have done, and they both been really good listeners. :D. A BIG THANK YOU TO YOU 2. :)
Xiang Ling - Sister!!! :D i know we are not that close as we used to, but i still care about you ok, and i can see you care for me as well. :). Thanks for the long talk we had last fri, really made me feel better. :D
Linus - This guy uh, bloody weird. i used to think he hated me or such, but cause of the recent events that occoured. i found him to be a really good friend, helping me even though he has his own probs with his good friend. Anyway, THANKs A bunch dude, looking forward to geeking with you about cars and games tmr. :D
Matthew - Yup, im talking about matthew leong of class 5a, the guy who "isint a boy but not yet a man". :D. he also been helping me a great deal for the past few days, Hope to see you tmr, where we can go high and emit a "scream-laugh". (both of our laughs are really high pitched XD)
And many other friends that are concerned about me (dawn, andy, melissa,enqi,farhan(fat),yusuf,yunus,jieling and manymanymore. THANKS PPL, LOVE ALL OF YA. :D
21 days left, will we still be friends.
For someone, i've let down, Jiong Lin.